My family, how to describe them? There's the good, the bad, and the ugly. I am not afraid of stating your name because I am not seven years old anymore, I'm not scared of you, I'm not worshiping your every step any longer. You've lost my respect, adoration, love, and friendship a long time ago. You Jacklyn Marie Calvillo, are the ugly of this family. All you've done is harm everyone and everything. You are shameless and an embarrassment to this family. How you have dignity and hold your head up high with such confidence truly baffles me.
Not only are you an embarrassment to this family, but you are an embarrassment to the Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, and Transgender family. Constantly changing your orientation to Straight, then Lesbian, and then Bi when you're not in a relationship is extrememly embarrassing. You're straight and you only hook up with women to get attention and men just use you because your an accessible access to spread your legs at the drop of a hat. All you are is an attention whore, craving for any significant amount of attention. Yea, Grandma's right, you don't know what you want. Like Aly said, you give a bad name to those orientations you pronounce yourself to be. You have no shame.
I always lived in fear under your presence when I was younger. My parents hated how high of an altar I had placed you in. And they had every right to. I wish I learned a lot sooner but what can I expect, I loved you like a second sister. My little sister. But now that I look at it, I'm glad I learned a little bit later because I was able to watch you fall from that mighty high altar everyone in this family placed you in. I watched you fall rapidly and how you're still falling even after you've reached the ground is rather joyful to watch.
You're the laughing stock in this family, you've become a massive train wreck. A train wreck that can never be recovered. You're long gone. Don't ever think I can reconcile with you. Never again. To think that you were a good person, no you're not. To think you were just a lost soul screaming for help, no you're not. To think I trusted you with every of my secrets, I was an idiot. But like I said, I've learned and I've grown. You don't scare me any longer and if you want to tell my family my secrets then go ahead. Unlike you, I do have dignity and I will defend what is mine. One thing I have that you don't is respect in this family and you have lost that. If you feel the need to say something to me or about me, go ahead, the stage is yours. I'll even provide the spotlight and microphones so you can even tell the entire block. I don't live in fear like you do. I'm proud of who I am and the young man I'm becoming. There's nothing for me to hide anymore.
Goodluck in life, you honestly need it. I don't wish you the best because these past years you've never aimed for the best. Just the easy way out which you never found. I can't say may god bless you to find your way and be with you, but I won't because you've denied him and pushed him away. I honestly believe he doesn't want anything to do with you anymore. Hopefully he's given up because I have, a long time ago.
And to finally lock the door I always left open for you, I want to thank you for ruining our relationship. For ruining your life and letting me open my eyes and witness it all. Every harm you caused. And most importantly, I would love to thank you for making me a stronger person. By giving confidence, dignity, respect, and love towards myself. Thanks to you, I learned what self respect truly is. You are the trash of this family, like trash, it's time we take you out.
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